The concept of suicide being selfish is such a weird thing to think about. I mean, sure, maybe you’d miss me - maybe it would hurt you - maybe you would be consumed by this feeling for a while. But please do not forget that if i had died, it would have been to escape the feeling you caused - the consuming silence and the feeling of missing you that has painted my life gray, the feeling that I would never be loved again, the feeling that occured when you told me those things - all these feelings that didnt allow me to live anymore.
So, remember - I don’t blame you, I only wanted to feel peaceful. But if i hurt you once by trying to end my own pain, it was because you killed me first.

6 years ago, 06/08/15